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My Salvia Extract Experience |
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Written by Bryan
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Wednesday, 24 December 1997 |
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So I began trying to escape back to my reality again, although I still couldn't remember what that was, or even if it ever really existed. I wondered if that was the dream while this was my true reality. The being I was with seemed to be disappointed with me at that point. Like, he didn't want to see me go, but he was thinking, “Oh well, I tried everything I could to make him feel welcome.” Somewhere around this point, I finally caught my first glimpse of reality again since I had left. I was still witnessing the feelings and effects of the parallel universe I was in, but I somehow could see my reality at the same time. Like I was multi-dimensional or something! It was like I was staring through a sphere, like a vortex or something. And what I witnessed was as I entered this vortex, I could consciously feel part of my perception still in Salvinorin land, and part of it now back in reality. And, although this experience couldn't have lasted longer than a minute, it was the most unique event I've ever experienced before. I actually, consciously recognized the “portal” that is crossed through to get to “the other side.” And I made notice of that as I finally pushed through back to reality. This particular instance seemed quite surreal to me. Yet it was as real as everything else that I just experienced.
One thought in my head immediately after coming back was that I had narrowly escaped being stuck in that “time-void.” Like I was still believing in that revelation I mentioned before. At this point I finally made visual contact with my friend, who had been with me the whole time, watching over me. But I was still hallucinating. I asked him who he was, where I was, and what I was doing. He answered my questions, reminding me that I had just smoked some Salvinorin, and I finally remembered having done that. I then asked him how much longer I would be feeling the effects, and he told me for a few more minutes. And I responded with “I want it to stop now.” He told me I needed to wait and let it stop on its own. I tried to get up, but I felt like I was locked down to the floor. Gravity began playing with me very strangely, and I began to feel as if I were twisting, or rolling, and I began to physically roll my body around on the floor to match what I felt in my head.
At this point the effects were wearing off, and all I could do was mumble out loud, “I wasn't ready for this.... I wasn't ready for this,” over and over again. Finally, I was pretty much back in my reality again, with some very comforting and euphoric residual effects. The best part about this adventure is that I do not consider it to be a “bad trip.” Throughout all the panic and fright I may have experienced, I still feel that it was all positive. Upon finally returning to reality after my first visit to this place, I realized that I do love it, and I will return real soon. I just didn't realize there would be such a difference between smoking dried leaf and smoking extract. I didn't prepare myself for the intensity of this experience.
After much reflection on what had just occurred, I bid farewell to the Salvinorin spirit, and apologized for lacking trust in him. I let him know that I thanked him for what he set out to teach me, and that I'll be back again real soon....
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